So tomorrow is Mother’s Day. A Day to celebrate mom. For some this can be a wonderful joyous day – for others not so much.
Perhaps you had a bad relationship with your mom – or maybe mom was abusive – if that is the case, then you would likely not want to celebrate her!
Perhaps your mom has died, and it is a sad day for you, because it reminds you of all that you have lost.
Perhaps you don’t have a “mom” in your life – again, a day filled with sad reminders for all you don’t have.
Perhaps you CAN’T have children, and want nothing more than to be a mom. Sadness again.
Perhaps you have chosen to NOT have children you are frustrated that you can’t buy roses this week, because the prices has doubled from last week just because of this “holiday”
Or perhaps you are in a situation such as mine where you child is no longer with you here on earth. It is a very sad place to be.
Before I was pregnant with Alexander, I was pregnant with our first child. We were so very happy. Sadly we lost that child about 7 weeks into the pregnancy. That child, who we decided was a girl and named Sarah, would have been born on mothers day. Not a happy day for me.
When I was again pregnant, this time with Alexander, I was still having nausea! Again, mother’s day not so thrilling, because I was sick!
Last year, my “first” Mother’s day – we spent it in the hospital. Alexander had been admitted for 1 night, and it turned into 5 weeks. While, Richard and I were ale to enjoy a nice meal out thanks to a gift from an Aunt, it was not really a happy day for us.
And then that brings us to this year – can it get any worse? I have read all the poems about how I am “still a mommy even if my baby is in heaven” – but that doesn’t make it any easier, or make it hurt any less. I don’t feel like a mother any more – I just feel a sadness and emptiness inside.
So on this Mother’s Day, give your mom an extra big hug and kiss, and pray for those who on this day, are filled with sadness and heartache.