I have been down the last couple of days – missing Alexander. It isn’t that I don’t ALWAYS miss him, but some days and weeks are harder than others.
This weekend we went to a wedding in NH. It was very nice, but in the car there and back, I kept looking back at Julia and just wishing Alexander was there. We didn’t go to Story Land or Santa’s Village, because I think Julia is just a little too young for it, but how I wish we could have been there with Alexander AND Julia! I know he would have loved it, and with him there I would have been okay having Julia there too.
We were out to dinner, and they had a kids menu with crayons. I showed them to Julia and she seemed pretty fascinated by the crayons, but of course once I gave them to her she ate them! Alexander never got to use crayons – he was too little. Maybe he could have near the end – but we never did even try them. I don’t know why.
Julia loves the swings at the park. Alexander never went on the Swing. He was sick at 8 months old, and it was still winter. Then, he was in the hospital for most of the summer – then he was on TPN 24 hours a day, so he couldn’t really swing with that, then Winter again, then he was gone. I am sad for him that he didn’t get to have that fun activity in his life. He missed out on so much.
STUPID cancer robs so many children of the simplest things in life – it SUCKS!!!!